Are you making progress, or just getting by?
Apr 29th, 2008 by justin
Three years ago I was a bum. I hated to read, I wasn’t into learning new things. I had no reason to. I watched 5 hours of mind numbing TV everyday and had no idea what I wanted in life. I was extremely self absorbed, NEVER thinking of anyone besides myself. I found myself in a gym maybe once a month if I was lucky. My post college plan was to just grab a job in sports, which would hopefully make me a lot of money. I was materialistic. I tried to find happiness in the wrong places. Thinking that if I only had more money, a better car, a better apartment, my happiness would somehow improve. I had no big goals, no big dreams or anything of the sort. I didn’t need anything more than what I had at the time. I was content.
One random day, I was reading some article online and it referenced the book Fight Club. I had never seen the movie or read the book. It sounded cool, so on a whim I went out to Barnes and Nobles and picked it up. A few days later I pulled it off my desk, laid on my bed and read the whole thing. I was completely blown away. I remember lying there after finishing, and just trying to grasp everything I just read.
Here it was, a paperback theme song for my life. I was Jack. Everyday was just another monotonous step in my life. No challenges, no moments of triumph, no realizations, no learning, no progress. I was slowly striving for mediocrity.
In the three years since, my life has changed more than I could have thought. I’m much more self aware now. I understand people and situations better. I know what I want in my life when it comes to business, relationships and friends. I just a bought a new Jeep this weekend. A couple years ago this would have been a huge deal to me, but now it really doesn’t hit me the same. Don’t get me wrong, I love the way I feel when Im in it and I like the way it looks, but beyond that it’s just a vehicle to me. A couple years ago, I’m not so sure that would have been the case. To me it represents small progress in my life ; a slight reward for going out and continuing to push myself when it comes to my business.
It’s crazy to look back at posts I made on this blog even last year. What the hell was I thinking? I’m sure I’ll feel the same way when I read this a year from now as well. But I think that’s a good thing. It shows that I’m still learning and making progress. As Chuck says in Fight Club…
May I never be complete. May I never be content. May I never be perfect. Deliver me, Tyler, from being perfect and complete.
Looking back I can tell I’m making progress. Will I ever get to where I want? Probably not, but that’s not the goal. There is no end game. No final stage to pass through. I hope I’m always striving for more ; always pushing myself past what I think is possible. That’s the end goal.



